just came home from my grandpa's funeral.
did alot today.
heard we'll be doing more tml and on saturday.

it's my first funeral.
it's pretty big.
like really big.
usually i walk pass other funerals, maybe 5 tables?
we have 20 over tables and counting.
there's nothing to be proud of.
many respect my grandpa.
know why?

last year,
china held some event to celebrate some taoist thing.
my grandpa led singapore's team of taoist there.
he did some ritual for everyone there i think.
it was the 900th anniversary for something something lah.

he was the biggest shot in the singapore taoist association.

they believed he died at the age of 82.
but the real age is 79.
must add three years of age.
a taoist thing.
no idea.

and,
he's taoist.


and i didnt know anything.
till today.
fuck me.
i'm disappointed in myself.
shoot me somebody.